Sunday, January 15, 2017

A Simple Question

As rarely as I post, it’s surprising that I still receive reader e-mails. But I do. Some of them are those goofy and unnervingly inappropriate messages that Erica handles so wonderfully. But other correspondents genuinely want to talk about being a spanko.

I would like to share a bit of one conversation that you might enjoy. A young woman named Melinda wrote:

I’ve read a lot of articles from your blog and frankly, I’m fascinated. I find the idea of being spanked deeply intriguing, but it’s not exactly a turn on. When my husband spanks me – at my request – all I feel is pain. Somehow, it’s not sexy or fun. I like the idea far more than the reality.

I want to enjoy this, but I’m not sure I can. What would you recommend?

Here is my response:

Everyone’s preferences are different, just as they are with cuisine or entertainment. As long as people are safe and consenting, one preference is not objectively superior to another. As their relationship grows, a couple can discover, sometimes through experimentation, those activities that bring pleasure and satisfaction to both partners.

If spankings are not enjoyable at any level, it doesn’t make much sense to pursue them. On the other hand, if you find spankings “deeply intriguing” perhaps you would like reading spanking stories or watching spanking videos. Or maybe you are better suited to the top role.

Sexual preferences often seem to be hard wired. It’s one thing to say, “I didn’t know I liked x, but after trying it, I can see that I do.” It’s quite another to decide that you now like something that you previously tried and definitively disliked. These preferences evolve over time, but they seldom flip entirely.

But there are other possibilities. I’ve talked with spankos who say that while they love being spanked, it holds no sexual allure. They connect at some different level. It may be a feeling of submission that they seek and spankings are a physical expression. Some spankos, including me, want to experience the emotions and sensations of traditional corporal punishment. Still others incorporate spanking into a 24/7 lifestyle.

If you wish to press on, you and your husband might try changing up the spanking scenarios. For example, you might try less vigorous spankings, different positions, mixing spanking with sex in various ways, role plays, costumes, journaling, and other variations. Even if the spankings don’t click, working together to satisfy one another is generally a positive experience. There are no right answers, except in the context of the two people in the relationship.

Melinda responded:

Thank you for explaining. I didn’t understand there was so much thinking behind spanking. I’m still not sure what I want, but I love reading about your experiences. I would like to try something similar. I like reading spanking stories and I would like to try spanking videos. I will talk to my husband and see what he is willing to try. I want to make this work.

Please tell me – What is it about being spanked that appeals to you?

Here’s my reply:

I can see that you are truly interested. As you begin to explore this topic, it’s best to not spend too much time comparing your experiences with those of others. We each live different lives with different partners and deal with different circumstances. There are many routes to success and happiness. Even if we reach similar destinations, your path will probably be unlike mine or anyone’s.

So now to your question... There is no single answer. I could spend ten years writing hundreds of posts explaining why I love to have my husband spank my bottom. In fact, I did! But let’s see if I can capture the highlights.

My interest in spanking goes way back to early childhood. When I saw a spanking depicted on a television show, in a book, newspaper or magazine, in a cartoon or a movie, or in real life, it always triggered a tingly sort feeling deep inside me. It wasn’t sexual at that age, but I felt a strong attraction. I wanted to be the special one. I secretly wished that I could be that girl who was the center of attention as she wriggled atop the lap of a strong man. I knew from personal experience that spankings hurt, but that just didn’t matter.

As I grew older, my fascination expanded. In those pre-internet days, I combed magazines for pictures of spanking implements or things that looked like they might be implements. I looked up many spanking-related words in the dictionary. I memorized some of the definitions, such as “to strike the buttocks repeatedly, as in punishment.” I wanted my buttocks struck repeatedly.

I attended a school where some kids were paddled for misbehavior. But I was a good girl and never did anything bad enough to warrant the paddle. Naturally, I wanted to know everything about it. I recall a sleepover where I convinced my friend Dori to tell me every detail of the time when she received three swats from the assistant principal. I hung on every her word. I still remember exactly how she described the command to bend over, how much it hurt, and how she cried. I told her I felt sorry for her because I could see that she truly hated it. But I silently thought about how lucky she was and how I might possibly want to offer to take her place one day if the opportunity ever arose.

Then came puberty and suddenly and unexpectedly, this special secret interest of mine became sexual. I started noticing boys and when I did, they started noticing me. In those early teen years, intercourse was the farthest thing from my mind, but the prospect a little kiss and a good spanking filled my dreams. When I touched myself late at night, my inspiration was almost always a firm but loving imaginary spanker who would warm my bottom and correct my naughty ways.

I had a number of boyfriends, but most didn’t quite work out. They didn’t guess what I wanted and I was too embarrassed to tell them. The one time in high school when I did nervously spell it out, it was with a boy who totally misunderstood. I escaped serious injury, but gained a recognition of how important it was to find a compatible partner.

In college, I met that perfect match. Randy is as enthusiastic as I am, but he prefers the narrow end of the paddle. We’re still together and still spanking after nearly forty years. We’ve explored all of my favorite fantasies and his as well.

Spankings for us are absolutely always sexual. We believe that spanking is sex. Spankings are the cornerstone of our sex life. We may occasionally enjoy sex without spanking or spanking without sex, but most of the time, it’s both.

I am what some people might somewhat disparagingly call a bedroom submissive. I defer to his needs during our private times, but we live otherwise as equal partners. I am a capable adult woman, but I choose to submit to his superior strength and power. He protects and holds me. When he is strong, I don’t have to be. I can let go and allow events to transpire around me. Ironically, I express my own power by consciously ceding it to him for a time. Spankings are an expression of his dominance. I demonstrate my submission by gratefully accepting every swat he decides to share. This intimate exchange reconnects us and draws us ever closer.

As I mentioned, I adore corporal punishment scenes. We don’t do real punishment in a domestic discipline sense, though I would if Randy asked. Our scenes are closer to intense role play. Being the bad girl who needs to be spanked taps into a whole world of fantasies for me. I’ve been the truant schoolgirl, the naughty cheerleader, the sassy punk, the inattentive lover, the sloppy secretary, and many other permutations. The result is always a good spanking. These ritualized punishment scenarios touch something deep in my being.

We own a spanking bench. Yes, it’s actually a piece of furniture whose sole use is positioning me to be spanked. We play with light bondage. It’s nothing extreme or exotic, but more a bit of spice we add sometimes. I find it another expression of control that places me in a situation where compliance is no longer an issue. I enjoy these sensations.

Still, there’s more. I really like all of the trappings of spanking. We collect spanking implements and they get used regularly. I sometimes dress for spankings. We have spanking-related signals and code words. I enjoy spanking talk and spanking commands. I like having to assume the position. I gasp at the feel of a cold, smooth implement against my bare skin. I even like the vicious sting as my bottom is spanked. I appreciate the after-burn, the aftercare, and the lovemaking that follows. I love that little twinge hours later that reminds me that I was well spanked. I check my bottom in the mirror as I run my fingers over my marks. All of these experiences and sensations thrill, excite, and please me.

Randy loves to spank and I love to accommodate him. He dresses me for spankings and I am delighted to cooperate. He selects the timing, setting, position, implement, pace, and duration. He revels in surprising me by changing up the routine. In recent years, we have added corner time to our repertoire. He uses this time to expand his private photo collection.

Finally, I love being a spanko because it allows me to be a proud member of a wonderful community of bloggers. Some of these friends are as important to me as family members. Very little of what I share on the blog can be discussed with real life friends and family. But on the blogs, I can be myself.

That’s why I enjoy spankings. Your mileage may vary.


Roz said...

Hi Bonnie, it's great to see you post. Thank you for sharing this with us, some wonderful advice and I'm sure this will be a great help to many.


Wilma Rubble said...

Wow fantastic responses to her questions! Thank you for putting all in one a little bit about yourself (much easier than trying to read back ;) ).

Good luck Melinda, finding what works for you!


Leigh Smith said...

That post is why your readers keep coming back for more. I'm sure Melinda is grateful to have found your blog and have all her questions answered. If there are any more, I think you've given her the tools to find them within herself.

abby said...

What a wonderful response to Melinda and I bet you have helped quite a few others. hugs abby

Our Bottoms Burn said...

You have a gift for clearly explaining your thoughts that few people do. I am sure your professional life helped hone your skills, but I think you have natural talent.

Perhaps, I understand you so well, because your spanking interests is so much like our own.

Anonymous said...

A male viewpoint, but not the one giving but getting. It is a desire, a need, a release. You will find more women who wish to be spanked, than to give. My wife is a few years older, dated for a good six years before meeting her. She is a woman who belongs in the 50's, serious, loving, has that "mother" look. First spanking was her idea, my attitude and had enough, break up or take her punishment. I had trouble sitting, she meant business and this is are lifestyle.

Katie said...

It's always nice to hear from you Bonnie! :) Thank you for sharing your exchange with Melinda! I hope that she finds just what she is looking for, moving forward.

This post was a wonderful read, as always! There is a lot of food for thought here, for Melinda, and for all that wonder about getting started, and even those of us who are well into spanking. I also very much enjoyed your story of you! Thanks for all you do! Many hugs,

<3 Katie

Meredith Malloy said...

This is a wonderful post and it says so much. Thank you for answering this reader's question.

Enzo said...

Wow! Such an excellent, honest and straight-forward response to someone who genuinely seems interested in spanking (but uncertain on how to proceed). I applaud your response Bonnie, it is truly perfect.
Best always,

Cat said...

Always happy to see your blog pop up on my reading list, Bonnie. What a lovely explanation for Melinda. Thanks for sharing.

Hugs and blessings...Cat

Erica said...

You're the best, Bonnie. It makes me smile, the way you take the time to explain things so patiently and eloquently. So love seeing you post!

Hermione said...

Hi Bonnie,

Wow! That sure was a comprehensive answer.

I wish your correspondent the best of luck exploring spanking with her husband.


Terpsichore said...

What a great answer. :-) I hope the writer of the question has fun exploring and finds what she is looking for. I always love seeing your posts. Hugs

Bonnie said...

Roz - Thank you. I hope it will.

Willie - I sought that delicate balance between providing a complete response and writing something so lengthy that no one would want to read it. But I tend toward the latter extreme when writing about spanking.

Leigh - Aw, thanks.

Abby - Every once in a while, someone will write to say that my blog helped them to better understand this part of themselves. I am always delighted to hear from them.

Bogey - All authors are at their best when writing about a favorite topic they know well. :)

Anon - Congratulations on your good fortune.

Katie - You're very welcome!

Meredith - I am happy to answer reader questions and I like to share the responses here when appropriate. If one person has this question, there may be others who are not yet brave enough to ask,

Enzo - Thanks!

Cat - I'm glad you enjoyed this post.

Erica - Thank you. This is my favorite way to give back to this wonderful community.

Hermione - Thanks. Melinda told me that she saw the post. I await her response.

Bonnie said...

Terps - I too am looking forward to learning how Melinda's quest proceeds. I will share that when I find out more.

Rich Person said...

Thank you so much, Bonnie, for sharing yourself. I know I'm not the first to say it, but I had to say it, too, because it means a lot to me, too.

As for Melinda, she may find it helpful to write (for herself) about spanking. Putting her thoughts into words may help her find what it is she needs.

It reminds me how differently people experience things. One time I had a girl wait for her spanking. I thought it would make it more exciting for her, but when we talked about it later, she was just bored. Thinking about what would happen didn't turn her on.

Really, some things just require research. Theory won't do.

Emerging Lurker said...

Great post, Bonnie. Like so many of your others, it's clear, informative, and without judgement.

Anonymous said...

Wow. This is great. I absolutely love the way you write. To steal from Erica ... you explain things so patiently and eloquently. You understand yourself so well too! Wonderful post. Thank you.

Tom said...

Bonnie, this is a fascinating post. Thank you. As for Melinda, I suggest that she and her husband spend more time on the rituals - the scolding,being sent for the implement, the lifting of the skirt and lowering the panties. Then consider spanking only with the hand, and adding more ritual like having her thank him for the spanking.

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